Rattled Mama

It has been said, and "meme-d" all year, but 2020 is the dumpster fire that we still don't know how long it will burn for.  My family and I have weathered this storm well, up until now. We have reached a point, like most parents, wherein there are no right choices. I am terrified about schools opening. Our oldest has started his first year of "big kid" school. My children, and myself if I am being honest, crave structure and discipline. Without, what's the point in getting dressed, or doing anything other than watch TV until our brains turn to mush?  That is what we have been doing all summer. My husband and I have tried, and tried, and tried to impart knowledge onto our children. I have printed worksheets after worksheets. Bought all the necessary essentials for scientific experiments, and through all our well-meaning plans, one fact remains. We are not qualified to teach our kids anything.  Our children need school, but the current status of th...

This is all just a bit of silliness really, but the other day I was browsing "the Youtubes" and came across this young lady , Cydnee Black, doing a makeup tutorial and talking about her eye color. I think she has a really unique platform on her channel. She has fun experimenting with makeup and talks about deep issues. She is adorably canid. It is greatly upsetting to think people have the audacity to accuse her of wearing contacts when she in fact has beautiful crystal eyes. She received "nastygrams" telling her to accept who she was and not hide her true self. The truth, however, is the exact opposite. I guess trolls gotta troll. As I continued to watch her video wherein she shared her and her family's history, and the bullying she received growing up, I started to noticed similarities in myself. No, I am not as attractive, nor talented as this star, but I have grey eyes and sectoral heterochromia in one and partial heterochromia in the other. Ms. Black ha...