This Pandemic Sucks

It has been said, and "meme-d" all year, but 2020 is the dumpster fire that we still don't know how long it will burn for. 

My family and I have weathered this storm well, up until now. We have reached a point, like most parents, wherein there are no right choices. I am terrified about schools opening. Our oldest has started his first year of "big kid" school. My children, and myself if I am being honest, crave structure and discipline. Without, what's the point in getting dressed, or doing anything other than watch TV until our brains turn to mush? 

That is what we have been doing all summer. My husband and I have tried, and tried, and tried to impart knowledge onto our children. I have printed worksheets after worksheets. Bought all the necessary essentials for scientific experiments, and through all our well-meaning plans, one fact remains. We are not qualified to teach our kids anything. 

Our children need school, but the current status of this pandemic has us terrified. We can't keep staying home with our kids, neither of us can quit our jobs, and we can't afford to hire a private tutor. There we are, stuck, our backs up against a wall.

I know so many parents are in this same hole, and all we are able to do is scream into the pillow until we pass out. I don't expect answers, or comments really, to this post. I just wanted to rant and let other parents know, if they are feeling the same, that you are not alone.